This is a really cool description of what it's like for our loved one in spirit when they come and stand next to you- you know how we get the goose bumps or the hair stands up on the back of our neck or arms?, well this is how this young man in spirit describes it to his mom...
"Each time I come forward it’s like a brand-new journey in to the experience of being human. It’s like I step in and out and every time it feels new. I don’t know how to say that to you, if I’m explaining it right, because there is this ethereal wall so you can walk right through but there’s some sense of something shifting as you do. Like you feel the thickness, like you’re walking in to gel or something and you can move in it. It’s just so heavy and so dense. That’s what it feels like when I step close to you in the world. It’s like there is something all around me that won’t let me touch you but I’m right there.
I wonder if it feels the same for you. Maybe I’m just trying to figure out how I get through it all the way.
I know that we’re there. I know that I can feel you. I know that I can reach you and I feel that there’s something that we can do to clear this up – to maybe liquify the thickness of what I feel to be the gel. I’m just talking about it because I’m having the experience of it now. I’m trying to get through it and it’s getting clearer as I keep doing this. It seems like I’m figuring it out as we go. Now, as I do, I’m starting to realize there is so much I can talk about. There is so much here that I can explore. Oh, this is different, mom. This is something that’s going to help us. This is going to bring us closer together. It’s like I could jump right in here in a whole different way. I don’t know how that happened.
It’s almost like I was keeping myself responsible or obliged to your idea of what I should be and I wanted so bad to make it fit who I am now, into what you think I can be or show up as. *That’s what blocked us. Now that I feel like I can be freer, that I can show up in whatever way is possible, it’s like all of these doors opened in your field. It’s like this light is beaming into who you are and it’s showing me all the places we connect – all of the areas that I can get in to now. Oh, mom, I was just trying to meet you in the logical mind. I was trying to get you there. *I don’t belong there anymore.
I’ve got to show you where else we can go, where we really connect. You get it here and there. Every once in a while, you get a glimpse so far out in the distance you’re unsure of what you are seeing. That’s me, mom. That’s where I am. It’s got to be like that for now until we both focus better but it’s okay. As long as you know I’m out there and as long as I know you get a sense of me, we know we’re working together to bring ourselves closer together. I can say that now. It all makes sense to me now. I see it as purposeful now. It’s interesting. It’s like this light turned on and I have all of this information in front of me. So, I guess the best thing I can do is just give it to you straight. I’ll tell you what I see and then we’ll figure it out later. Right now, I see everybody. I see everybody coming together. I see everybody stuck together. I feel like everybody is so close they don’t know what to do with each other.
But I also feel like there’s a lot of separateness too. Like people are so far from who they truly are that even though they are standing right next to each other they don’t recognize each other because they’re not really being true to who they are. That gets heavy doesn’t it? It’s weird to read all this stuff. It’s like a book but there’s a lot of books and it’s all connected. *It’s like all the books put together create all of our experience together. I don't know, I’ve never even thought that this could be what it’s like. Maybe these kinds of experiences are different for every one of us. This is just the way that I’m seeing it now. Let me keep going. I might as well, since I’m here, open up and see what else is in these books. I know that the way I can tell you is when I look in to your field there are all these other little lights I want to go run and explore. So, what am I going to do? I’m going to the brightest light first..."
Channeled March 2020
via Laura Mirante