There was no sense of uncertainty in me at that moment I left my body behind.
I wasn’t driven by fear.
I didn’t keep myself back because I didn’t know what I was moving in to.
I didn’t keep myself back because I needed to hold on and affect everybody that I thought needed my affecting.
I let go and I moved on.
I didn’t allow my physical experience to affect my transition at all.
I want you to know that.
It was as if I just let go and I was able to move forward even though my body wasn’t quite done yet. I’ll say that.
I let go before my body was complete with it's experience.
I, the energy of me, moved in to the Divine right away.
I just felt a little bit of a pull and I said,
“Okay, I’m ready”
and I went with it.
There was no hesitation in my step and there was nothing holding me back.
I embraced the divine with all that I am and I allowed myself to experience those moments of realization where when the divine flows into your beingness, all of a sudden, you see all of the places that the divine wasn’t.
You find all of the belief systems that weren’t complete.
You feel all of the fears that held you back from recognizing all that you truly are.
That is something coming from me. That is something coming from someone who was certain of who she was most of the time, who did have a sense of what it was she was to be.
I feel that I held on to that more than most in my lifetime.
I feel that I honored that soulful part of me even if I didn’t want to, even if I didn’t feel that it was honoring me. There were those moments in my experience where I went that far with my sense of denial of the divine in every experience.
Of course now I see it different. Of course now I see the divine in everything – in things I never would have thought there was divine energy in. That is something that was somewhat of an eye opener, I’ll tell you that. There really was that moment of awareness where you think, you think, you think you understand it all. You think you know what it is going to be like.
You think that it is just going to be all light and all love and everything is just going to make perfect sense. Well, I would say that there was some of that. I could see how people could go there with their interpretation of this transitional process but for me it was different.
I guess I’ve heard that before – that it is always different. It is always how people are and who they are that affects this transitional process.
So, for me, there was quite the learning experience.
It’s as if my curious mind opened wide up as soon as I felt that pull and I wanted it all.
I wanted to learn it all instantaneously.
I wanted to take it all in and understand it all, embrace it all and be it all.
That’s how I moved in to it.
Although that was my intention I found myself wading in it.
I found myself moving through it much, much more intimately than I had imagined I would.
I thought I could just shoot right through it, fly right into it, but then I felt it.
Then I felt it all.
I felt everything, everything I had ever made anyone feel. I felt every experience I had ever had – all at once. You know what that does?
It makes you stop.
It makes you breathe.
It makes you just feel into it all.
It makes you just appreciate all that you’ve just experienced.
Even though it wasn’t all wonderful and wondrous I felt the divine purpose beneath the surface of every experience I had ever had.
That is what truly takes your breath away - that moment of realization that even the bad stuff in life is divine.
Even the stuff you wished you hadn’t needed to experience was all divine and all exactly what you needed to experience.
I guess that is probably the most amazing part of that moment of realization where it all starts to come together and you begin to see how it all fits.
Each and every experience, every single interaction you have has such a profound effect on the big picture of you.
That is what took my breath away.
That is what left me just stuttering or standing in a state of awe and uncertainty.
That’s really something because in the moment of your greatest sense of certainty you feel a sense of uncertainty.
I guess that’s what the transition is.
The uncertainty was the old me, the human me.
That state of perception met the awareness of the total me and in that brief second there was that moment of disillusion where you’re not sure what’s real and what’s not real – who you are and who you are not.
That really confounds logic.
It really takes you out of the inclination of the human being to conceptualize it intellectually.
All of a sudden, you get pushed beyond that.
You feel the inconsistency there and that creates the doubt and uncertainty.
Yet you feel such a sense of certainty just beyond that.
You know that’s where you need to focus.
You know that is what you need to move in to,
that sense of certainty,
that awareness that is just everything.
So it took a brief second to have that recognition and realize that it was just the old me that was uncertain and all I needed to do was let go and I did.
Then I was able to just integrate this process of experiential growth by allowing myself to just continue to move through all of it without attachment to any of it.
You know you can watch a movie and you can root for this guy or that guy to win the fight but when you are watching the movie of your life there is no rooting for anybody but you root for everybody.
It is like you want everybody to feel complete and balanced in every experience.
The thing is as I look at it, as I see it, as I feel into it, most of the time you are in balance and yet it doesn’t feel that way in the physical, does it?
It doesn’t feel as though those difficult times make you feel balanced.
Well, I’d say to the contrary they make you feel off-balance.
They make you feel off-center.
They make you question everything that you are.
That’s where the balance comes in, you know.
When we are so certain of who we are in the physical that we don’t need anything else that’s usually when life trips us up.
That is usually when life configures some experience to have us questioning what we thought we knew.
When we feel so out of balance with what we thought we knew that’s when we are finding balance in our energy because when we are so certain in our logical mind, well then, we are leaning that way, aren’t we?
We are tipping the scales in the direction of the physical and that never, never serves on the higher aspects of self or at least not to the point of finding balance.
So life, of course, has to create the experiences to create that balance and remind you that this is not all that there is and that there is more.
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Profound insight from a brilliant adult daughter in spirit channeled in 2015 for her dad, sharing her unique fascinating perception of dying.
channeled 9/3/15
by Laura Mirante
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