One young man's interpretation of dying and the purpose of his early transition into spirit for his mom.

It is marshmallow pie. 

It’s like floating on a cloud. 

It’s like swimming in a river that is filled with cotton balls. 

I don’t know how to make it sound any easier or less painful. 

There is nothing here but freedom and a sense of entitlement to be me – like I’m purposeful, like I’m perfect and like everything I was ever meant to be I was,

I AM and I still can be.

I don’t feel like I left anything behind. 

I don’t feel like I’m not finished. 

I feel like I had to leave when I did because of the situation in me. 

It wasn’t about the external environment. 

I wasn’t about anybody but me, that I am a part of something bigger than just being me.

If I could explain it to you in any way that’s how it has to be. 

It wasn’t about me in my individual life or you and me in our life or any of that. 

There is something bigger in both of us. 

It is about purpose for me. 

It’s more about a purpose and an effect that I can have because of who I was.

I know it doesn’t all make sense yet but it is starting to, isn’t it? 

It is starting to feel like there might have been something more to everything we ever experienced - like every time you look back something else comes up. 

You can’t just have the memory anymore and just think about what it was.  Now I add something to it. 

I ask you to go deeper. 

I ask you to see things in a more profound way because I want you to understand that this important for us. 

What I do now is connect with people just like me and I think that might be why I had to live my life the way that I did.  So I could get good at understanding where people were stuck.  So I can see what it felt like to feel all of those feelings and to have myself challenging my entitlement to feel it all.

In all of that you kept holding that mirror up and trying to show me, me;

trying to remind me how to be me;

trying to give me permission but it wasn’t for you to give me permission. 

It was me that struggled with it. 

It was me that had to move through the things that helped me feel entitled to receive love, that helped me appreciate all the ways that you brought that to me. 

Sometimes I think that there is more to our situation than what we actually did – like we were doing something beneath the surface.  Through all the stuff we did on the surface there was always something stronger beneath the surface between us that kept you coming back, that kept you fighting for me, that kept you giving me things that you didn’t even think you had to give. 

It was like you kept dipping into that well – soul love. 

So when my human experience challenged you you could go into that deep place and bring it forward and it would give you the energy to do the things you didn’t think you had the energy for.

It seems to work even after I passed. 

It was like you knew there was something surrounding you and, yeah, it was me but it wasn’t just me. 

I have to tell you that the minute I let go, the minute my life wasn’t confined to my physical body, I was greeted by a power so unrelenting that there was no dismissing the importance of me taking a step forward. 

It was like I was pulled in to a force of life that reminded me that that’s who I was. 

It was so overwhelming that I didn’t feel any pain, any regret or any resistance. 

I wasn’t fighting. 

I wasn’t holding on. 

I was being released. 

I was being received. 

I was being recognized and I was being healed. 

It was like this powerful light blew right through me and I realized that that’s all I ever needed.

I don’t know that means as far as words but it was like, all of a sudden, I realized who I was and how free I had always been. 

We don’t get that when we are alive and I just wanted to give that to you now. 

It is more magnificent than I really want to make it sound because I know living is also something that we don’t really understand. 

We really don’t appreciate what a gift life is when we are there. 

Every minute is precious and what I know about life now I wish I could have held on to when I was there but it doesn’t matter because I’ve got it here and I know it is purposeful.

Channeled via Laura Mirante