Does he have a purpose there?
Did you take your life or was it an accident?
Here is his response:
Does he have a purpose there?
"It’s not like a job, mom. Let me explain to you what purpose is. It’s just taking on a different posture. It’s very interesting.
You come here and you think you’ve got to do something. You’ve got to do something like work or something. Isn’t that purpose – having a career, is that your purpose?
That’s what’s wrong with the world.
That’s where we are lost.
Everybody is looking for the job, looking for how to make the money. That’s what everybody’s purpose is in their mind. It’s so messed up! It’s like we don’t understand who we really are and we don’t, we don't understand who we really are.
So, yeah, my purpose here has been learning to accept what purpose is. It’s like I work through our process. I work through my inconsistencies in life.
You know, nobody gets punished.
Nobody gets yelled at or sent to the corner.
It’s like all of a sudden you have all of this time to appreciate the opportunity that life gave you to be you.
What you do is sit here going, oh my God, look how far from me I actually was.
So my purpose now is trying to rectify in me that that was all purposeful. That none of it was a mistake.
Somehow, on some level, in some way, everything that happened in my life affects somebody somewhere.
I don’t know if I’ll be able to see how that all works but it seems to come in waves where I get it. I get that at this moment I had this experience, I affected this person in this way and then, all of a sudden, I could see the ripple. That’s what I do now. I don’t have any certain job I have to fulfill but I do feel inclined to give people some insight every once in a while.
I go back into the places where I used to be and I try to push them. It’s like I said. When you see how far from truth you lived you kind of want to go back and help those that are following the same path not to make the same mistakes.
I’m not a savior. I’m not a hero. I’m not an angel.
I’m an old soul who understood the ridiculous nature of the human experience while I was in it which is why I wanted to release myself from it. I’ll say I did what I had to do for the reasons that I couldn’t possibly put in to words. There were times that I affected people in ways that they needed me to. "
Did you take your life or was it an accident?
"What do you want me to say? That I wanted to leave, that I wanted to let go and find freedom from all of that pain and suffering? Yea, that’s why I did what I did. I always felt that there was something more, a higher high or a bigger picture view from a higher perspective. That’s what I was looking for. So was I in pursuit of that high, was I looking for a more expansive point of view, I’d say so? Did it mean that I wanted to intentionally take my life?
No.
Do you see the other angels?
"It’s like we work as a team."
Channeled by 12/2019